I looked in the mirror this morning on my first day as a 33 year old. 33?!? How in the world did this happen?? The gray hairs seem to stick out a little more and everything aches. Okay, honestly, I don’t really feel any older today than I did yesterday or last year. Half the time I still see the awkward 12 year old with red glasses in the mirror… But there are definitely gray hairs now that I didn’t have back then! Birthdays are a good time to reflect and I wanted to share an update on what I’ve been up to lately. In addition to another year of life, I’ve celebrated several big milestones.
I’m at the halfway point of my year at RVA. At the end of last school term, I was feeling discouraged and down. The emotional and spiritual struggles I saw students dealing with seemed contagious, and I really believe Satan was using my feelings of inadequacy & perfectionist tendencies to make me ineffective in ministry. This term I’ve felt more settled in my role and more at home in Kijabe. Not that I’m suddenly SuperMissionary or don’t have down days, but God has given me grace in reminding me that I don’t have to do all or be all. I love the students here and love that I can share in their lives, whether taking care of their health needs, mentoring, encouraging, or cheering them on at concerts and sporting events. I’m so excited for the last half of my term! I hope to go through the next few months focused on God; loving and serving the kids through his strength instead of my own.
Another momentous occasion was my 5 year anniversary of becoming a nurse practitioner. This meant I was due to renew my license. A chronic procrastinator, I hadn’t done many of the 150 hours of continuing education required ahead of time. God bless the internet, because I was able to get half of the hours done online! I was also able to contact the students I’ve precepted and get proof of the hours they worked with me to fulfill the remainder of the requirement. Thankfully, all the paperwork was processed in time before my license expired. How cool is it that I can do all that from Kenya?! Despite the stress and crazy days when I just want to give up, I am so thankful for the privilege I have as a nurse and nurse practitioner. I love the problem solving and critical thinking necessary in my profession. I love the unbelievable stories I get to tell! 🙂 I am so blessed to be able to help people in their time of physical need.
This month also marked my one year anniversary dating an amazing man. In the past, I wanted to have my life all planned out. I had big dreams of serving God as a missionary nurse, traveling the world and having an important career. To prevent disappointment, I pretty much convinced myself that I’d be single forever. I figured it was easier to believe something would never happen than to get my hopes up and have them be unfulfilled. But that perspective was just as wrong as thinking that I needed to have a relationship or be married to be complete. With limited dating experience, learning how to be in a serious relationship has been a wonderful challenge. Nate has patiently taught me how to be vulnerable, to trust and to give up control. It is sometimes difficult to believe, but he accepts me for the goofy, nerdy woman I am- even in sweatpants and no makeup! I suppose it shouldn’t be a surprise that it has been a reflection of my relationship with God. I’m constantly reminded God loves me for who I am- imperfections, failures and all. As wonderful as Nate is, he’s human- he’s not perfect either. But God is, and I can trust him for my relationships, my career and my future.
Thanks for listening to my sentimental ramblings! I believe God has great plans & I’m excited about the coming year and more happy adventures in following Jesus.
~Sarah